I apologize in advance for this nonsensical blog of randomness with many different topics and ideas thrown onto a page to create an insanely amusing look into my life at the current time. Now that the run-on sentence is complete, I can continue to my true purpose. I need to write. I need to get my feelings and emotions on paper. I guess the ethos just want to run out of me...it's Greek- look it up. Anyways, tonight I actually went and saw Beauty and the Beast in 3D. I usually don't like 3D movies and I have always thought they were a scam to get people's money just so kids can see a hand or a bird come out of the screen. After this though, I am actually surprised. I enjoyed myself immensely watching the silverware come to life and seeing the happy ending unfold. Even with this movie being wonderful (which it was) it brought back my childhood memories. I remember sitting down in front of my little TV and putting in my video (yes, my video not a DVD or Blue Ray) and getting scared when I saw the beast and laughing when the castle attacked. Well, thinking about that made me think of all my other Disney videos, which I still have, and thinking back on all the fun times I had watching them. This nostalgia is wonderful for a college student who usually is too busy studying or worrying to remember the good 'ol days where Barbie's head coming off was a world tragedy and getting a B in a class meant crying for days. Kids have no idea how easy they have it. Now I know if a child read this they would be very upset and I guess if I was in their shoes I would do the same. I guess in the scheme of things every generation and age have their own problems. Little children worry about getting to go to the park or to a friend's house. Middle school kids worry about impressing their teacher and getting the newest game. Junior high kids worry about looking good and getting more minutes for their phone or, as the case was for me, more texts a month. In high school, the main concerns are (for girls) boys and friends. Except for me, I also had the concerns of grades, one act, choir, NHS, and the various other activities I was in. Now, in college, grades, friends, and club are mostly the issue. Sometimes others creep in but mostly a college student's life is focused around school. I mean it should be, considering your paying for it. I guess I could start talking about my problems but I really don't want to do that because anyone can read this. That's something that bothers me. People talk about their problems and that's all they do. They don't do anything to try to change their situation. Complaining will not change anything. It just makes you focus on the bad and not on the beauty of life. If you want something to change it, you must change it or at least try. If you try and nothing changes, try again. Complaining will not fix anything. Now, I'm guilty of this too but I want to change that. If I can focus on the good then maybe, just maybe, the world will be a better place and the light of Jesus can shine through me. That should be every Christian's goal. Jesus didn't complain. If He wanted to change something- He did. When He wanted to clear the temple- that's what He did. Now a person can be mad but change comes about by doing something. Do something. That's part of the reason I'm writing this. It's like 12 in the morning but I had to do something. I actually feel pretty bad- my roomie is trying to sleep but I'm not tired, not at all. So I decided to write. If I had a paper to write I would be writing that but being a music major means few papers. Oh well, more time for composing and writing music. Speaking of music, I love it. It is the breath of life coming straight from God that shines in this dark world. Music is constant, yet ever changing. Some find this weird, but I love all kinds of music. I'm pretty sure I wrote about that in a previous blog but it's still the same. I'm actually hoping this semester to write a paper on the music in the Bible and trace back to the songs in the New Testament and the songs the early Christians sang. It would be an awesome combination of things I love: Music, the Bible, and History. Love is a peculiar thing. It can be dispersed through many things and yet remain for many more things to come. The future is a scary road. Everyday we look at the past, the future, and the present. Yet, the present and the future are the only things that truly matter. I mean, tomorrow is gone- we can't go back and change anything. The future is the only thing we can plan. Yet, planning sometimes doesn't work out the way we want it. I had plans. They changed. Some for the better, and some for the worse. "For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, 'It might have been'." That quote, by Whittier, is sadly true. Wondering what might have happened if it had worked out or if everything you had wanted had actually come true. Sometimes the fairy tales you play out in your head turn out to be just that- fairy tales. God has a plan but sometimes we... I want the dreams to come true and for the princess to get her prince. Sadly, that can't always happen. The princess instead is alone in her own dreams and lays down her hopes and wishes and realizes the truth- that fairy tales only happen in the movies. She's just buying a stairway to heaven. Thanks Led Zeppelin for the pity party. ANYWAYS, if you haven't heard the song "Safe and Sound" from the Hunger Games soundtrack you should. It's a really great song that I'm planning on singing with a couple of my friends. It has a really powerful meaning and if you have read the books it is even more powerful. Speaking of my favorite book series- they are also wonderful. I cried a lot and I am forever changed. It was like the books were real and I was a part. I may sound like a crazy book lady but they are great and you should seriously read them if you haven't. Ok, I seriously don't now what to talk about now. This post is what happens when you don't blog for a long time and you have so much to say that is comes out nonsensical and in random order. If I have depressed you in any way, please, go watch some funny videos on YouTube like Charlie the Unicorn or Llamas with Hats or Marcel the Shell with shoes on. Hopefully, I helped you remember some childhood memories and far out dreams you once had. Just because a happy ending hasn't happened for me, doesn't mean you can't have one. God has a plan for everyone and have a plan for you too. He will guide you and will always be on your side. A lot of time we lose sight of that. I hope to hold onto the truth that God will be there for me and has a plan for me. He rules- literally.
Keep singing and God bless.
Becca
"Don' you dare look out your window, darling everything's on fire. The war outside our door keeps raging on. Hold on to this lullaby even when music's gone"~ Safe and Sound
