Why is it that whenever I have a million papers due and a bunch of finals to study for all I want to do is blog. So much has happened in this semester that I need to write. I need to express. I need to tell so I can heal. I have been hurt, trampled on, lost, and everything in between. I've also had the time of my life and have enjoyed making new friends and making old ones better. I've also had to deal with heartache and confusion and distress. Yet, I have also learned so much and have gathered knowledge that I will be able to use later in my life. College is like a collage of emotions and events that all intertwine to create an experience that one cannot ever forget.
When looking at a piece of music, one can see that it is filled with notes and chords to create a sound. Yet, all pieces are not harmoniously pleasing to the ear. "Poem Electronique" by Edgar Varese is obviously a musical art form but most would say it is a bunch of noise that is dissonant and untamed. It may sound weird and, I may look like a freak by saying this, but I love it. No I don't love the dissonance or that the sounds make a person jump with fear sometimes. What I love is that this piece of music is a perfect example of my love for music. In my belief, music is life. Life is music. Everything has a sound, a heartbeat, a voice. Car horns, birds chirping, the radio, even a door slamming are all a sound which create music. I know, I know, I sound like I'm crazy and that I really need some sleep or some mental help. Eh, who cares? You only live once. I really do believe that music is a foundational part of life and that without music, one cannot survive. If a heartbeat is music, then that statement is true. Music truly is life. Now to get to the point. The reason I am in college is to gain a degree in music and learn as much as I can in the few short years I go to school. Music is a vital part of my life and it is what keeps me going even when the going gets tough. When I feel sad, depressed, hurt, broken, lost, downtrodden, forsaken, lonely, etc. all I have to do is listen to some music and I feel much better. Music has the ability to change one's outlook and to change one's mood. Music is wonderful. That's my point. I'm listening to Coldplay right now and all I can do is smile, even though I'm upset and worried and a number of other feelings. I apologize if you are reading this and it seems to be a bit repetitive and or boring if you dislike music, but you did choose to read this...so that's your own fault.
In other news, finals are next week. So every college kid at OC is stressing and studying like crazy. Actually mostly they are just stressing. Why study now when you can wait till Sunday night? I know, stupid logic but for some reason it always happens that way. I personally am only stressing about my juries and my music classes. I'm obviously going to try my best but what if my best isn't good enough? Testing is a ridiculous form of assessment and should be abolished...not really but a class test would be fine with me. Other than that stressful issue, a few others have become apparent in my life. This past week has made me cry, laugh, and a numerous of other emotional representatives. To sum it up: well, just listen to Violet Hill by Coldplay- it will explain my feelings exactly. To my friends I say I love you all. To my enemies: Don't be hate'n. To my family: You know I miss you like crazy! And to those of you who have changed my life forever: Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones and I will try to fix you.
Peace, Love, and Joy to all. May God bless this season for you and yours.
All my love,
Becca
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